ThINgS R JuZ...

Its been such a long time..

2005-06-25T05:17:00.000-07:00

long long time nv post le..
guess u all forgot abt my blog le..
but nvm..

its seem rather a long n boring holidae..
nth better to do bahz..
i also dunno wat to sae...

exam over!!!

2005-05-14T00:00:00.000-07:00

finall exam over..
crap sia..this time e maths fail sia..
dare not tell my parents....
my mum will be sad n my dad will be angry til like siao..
sian sia...

todae watch movie..
quick nice...
called coach carter..
if our sch got such a coach..
i dun mind doing well in results..
i wan to win..
in matches..
so tht other wun look down on rss bball..
actualli..
i feel tht our sch ball is gd..
but no coach to rally all of us together..
if onli..

todae take np with eu n j, hl n ph..
n all money eu n mine is used up..
they too pro..
hahaz..

happi belated birthdae to hl..

n happi birthdae to wen zhu!!!

ExAM...

2005-05-09T04:47:00.000-07:00

Geez..
so many exams is tested..
so hard!!!
Stressed!!!

Happy beLated birthdae Atiqah!

nowadays veri sian..
but i tink fridae wun be so sian..
we all go out to celebrate hl birthdae..
i tink is me,eu,kh,j,ph n hl..
i hope it not too much ppl..
too big a crowd is not fun de..

Y is life sooO boring???
cause i got nth else better to do???
dunnoe lah..
i hoping to pick up some new hobby but dunno wat to pick up..

anyway i pick up archery a few months ago..
n i m nt bad at it..
got the talent ehz..
but when i play with my bro..
still kena him thrash...
this sat wan to go play..
but here doesn't hav good places to play..
n no1 to pei wo..
haqhaz..lol..

Exam..

2005-04-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

exam is approaching..
stress..
a lot tings wanted to sae..
but suddenly forgotten all of them..

sometimes i reali wonder..
do i hav a realli hav true friend tht i can truly confine in??

nowadyas life soooo boring..
studying till wan to die..

exam coming le..

2005-04-15T17:14:00.000-07:00

Exam is approaching..its like onli left 3 weeks...
den my father keep giving stress...
the whole dae ask me do this do tht..
crap sia..

this is pretty eventful week.
.lol..l
ots of tings happen..
subjects r getting harder n harder...

i was realli surpised by sth..
Shi Min wrote mw a testi..
i was like so shock..
lol..
indeed in the past i was quite afraid of her..
but not now anymore..
cause she is a ncie gal..
lol..dun tink wai wai..
she's r_y_en's..
haha..

bOriNg LiFe

2005-04-11T08:41:00.000-07:00

lol...nowadays is so boring..
but todae is different..
cause we all saying all those lame jokes...
then i keep laughing..
dunnoe y..
told shi min a lot of those questions..
then she was like so stiff n zhen qing..
hahaz..
her reaction veri funny..
lol..then somemore wz kena me trick todae..
hahaz...
couldnt keep laughing..
then todae ying xuan ask me n eu those lame questions..
i dunnoe y i immediately got the ans..
juz cross my mind..
then shi min n ying xuan sae me teco..dunno how to spell it..
lol...i wasnt..
it juz cross my mind!!!!
lol..then later wz ask me a soooo lame one tht it is the onli 1 i wasnt laughing at..
hahaz..jk...lol..
suddenly realise a lot of ppl around me r nice ppl..
it is juz in the past i was too preoccupied by things so i dun care...
but after todae..
i feel tht i earn more friends..
ike shi min n ying xuan..
lol... =p

so much hw..
cannot finish..
die lioa..lol..
this time all sub is like so hard..
tink this time common test is gotta fail like hell...
lol...

suddenly so many ppl noe my blog add...lol..
hhahaz..
dunno if wan to join njrc or nt..
but my cca point is like so pathetic..
but dunnoe if my parents allow or nt..
n kai xun sae june go genting to go play..
i feel its a gd idea..but depends on result bahz..
haha..
nw i beginning to feel the stress for o-lvl..
scared sia..

FrEE tO fLy

2005-03-30T04:44:00.000-08:00

i had finalli be free...
from all tht is concerned with the matters of heart..
i wan to be fre..
i had decided to give up everyting tht is concern with tht..
i will change this passion for bball..
i will learn to love bball..
i wan to be better in it..
i wan to be the best..
i believe tht i got the talent n the basic..
i juz need to train.. :P (byl)
i will do my best for sports carnival..
i will not let 3/5 down..
i will not let my teammates down..

TinGs..

2005-03-25T09:20:00.000-08:00

THiEsE fEw DaEs

a lot tings happen.. lol...dun wan to sae abt them..lol..

finalli gave up her..best friends 4ever.. i mean gd friends..haha..lol..

a gd friend of mine....
once said to the gal he lov....
tht his love for her is nth..
n ask her to listen to the song 'perfect'....
n in tht song got one phrase tht goes like this ' nth last 4ever'..
so if u link both together is ' my love for u last 4ever..
i also veri touch by wat he did for her...
lol... he did a lot for her..
then i always question myself..
can i do as much as wat he did...
can i???
can i???
wat can i do???
can i realli give out my heart???
will i nt get hurt again???

SHoU FANg kAI

2005-03-23T05:00:00.000-08:00

maybe i shld realli give up..actualli i shld noe tht i stand no chance...
lol..giving up..a lot of ppl said tht i shld give up..lol...ya..
i will try to give up.........................

todae nth new..receive report card le..pretty happi with it bahz..
todae the fir drill so wu lioa... veri tired sia...haiz...lol...then other lesson also veri wu lioa..new seating arragement again..lol..dunnoe this time sit with who again..better not those who r veri fan or noisy de..
lol...

手放开

2005-03-23T04:33:00.000-08:00

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开
听着别人的对白
也许那些故事
可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏人怔怔看情感概
不能给你未来
我还你现在安静结束
也是另一种对待当
眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白

我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋

最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌写着等待

最后的疼爱是手放开
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开我
无法随便走开感情中专心的人容易被伤害

HmM...

2005-03-22T08:50:00.000-08:00

she told me tht..
this is not the right time to bgr..
this is time for studying...
but cant we handle both juz well..
for example, dorlene..
she got 6a1 n still invovle with bgr..
couldn't we juz do well...
y????
i realli hope she could open up herself..
tell me wat de prom...
wat's wrong..
i wanna 2 noe..
i believe tht we can handle both well...
but it depends on u.
wats u realli tinking abt..
tell me..
if i dunno...
wat can i do??
i realli wanna 2 noe..
wat's on yr mind...
u said u wan us to be 4ever gd friends...
cant we be sth more than tht..
juz more thn friends..
i neo u dun wanna to hurt me..
but i juz wanna de pure truth...

My luv 4 u nV ChAnGe...

Yo...

2005-03-21T07:30:00.000-08:00

U GUyS GoT sEe ThE DiFfErEnCe iN mY bLog..
Yeh..
FiNAlLi cHaNgE tHe blOgSkIN n ThE SOnG..
The soNg vER NIcE n ToUcHINg Hir..
it Is CaLlLeD SAdNeSS n soRrOw In nArUto dE...

lOL..
ThIs TImE rEsuLt vEr GD SIa...
HaHAz...

eNg:70
ChI:53
E-maTh:85
A-MatH:85
bIo:66
ChEm:72
PhY:84
His:
sS:

LOl..
mE tOo tYcO le..
loL..

LuV U a loT...

CoNfUsEd...

2005-03-20T10:14:00.000-08:00

i dUnNo Y I Feel lIkE ThIs..
buT I Am juZ CoNfUsEd.....

I REAlLi liKe tEnG TEnG..
ItS a uNrEQuIrED LOvE..
TeCj YeW Told Me tO gO JIo HeR..
buT....
BUt...
WilL ThINg Or tHe SiTuatIoN cHaNgE??
If w IlL....
i WIlL N MuZ Do iT...
BUt..
I NOE The fAcT iS..
tHeRe Is no eNdInG tO IT....
ItS uSeLEsS...
ShE WiLl Nv bE WiTh Me...

If tHInGs cOulD aPpEaRed liKe GaMeS oR In FaIrYtAlES..

I am jUz aLl oUt Of lUv....

ALl oUt OF lUv

2005-03-16T00:55:00.000-08:00

"All Out Of Love"
I'm all out of love
I'm so lost without you
I know you were righ
t Believing for so long
I'm all out of love
What am I without you?
I can't be too late
To say that I was so wrong
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too
but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low (Seemes so low)
It would make me believe what tomorrow would bring
When today doesn't really know (doesn't really know)

I'm all out of loveI
'm so lost without you
I know you were right
Believing for so long
I'm all out of love
What am I without you?
I can't be too late
To say that I was so wrong (oh baby)
I want you to come, come and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh so right?
And what would you say if I call on you now
And say that I can't hold on? (Can't hold on)
There's no easy way it gets harder each day
Please love me or
I'll be gone
I'll be gone

I'm all out of love
I'm so lost without you
I know you were right
Believing for so long
I'm all out of love
What am I without you?
I can't be too late
To say that I was so wrong (What are you thinking of?)
What are you thinking of? (Oh tell me what are you thinking of?)
What are you thinking of?

I'm all out of love
I'm so lost without you
I know you were right
Believing for so long
I'm all out of love
What am I without you?
I can't be too lateTo say that I was so wrong

I LuV yOu...

lol..

2005-03-11T08:46:00.000-08:00

i am tryin to give up on u...
pls...
give me time....
n not onli u..
i am still trying hard to give up another person tht
i had always wan to give up..
i always knew tht i still lik her a bit.. even though i like another gal..
from the end of last mid year..
from the dae u said sth..
i am trying veri hard...
to give up on u...
but till this dae...
i haven completely forget u..
both of u..
i am trying veri hard..
i wan to sae i am sorri..
for not being able to do it..
SOrri
I stIlL lOvE u tHouGh
If onLi tHinGs can B EAsiLeR FoRgOtTeN...

i noe...
we r impossible..
for i am..
not gd enough..
if not...
y i had suffer the same fate twice..
if not..
if not...

NOw iTs Mt tUrn..

2005-03-09T05:06:00.000-08:00

haiz..lol..dunno wat to sae now..cried in class todae..luckily no1 see..lol..
its all my fault..if onli i can be better..lol..maybe bahz..

haiz..

2005-03-05T05:55:00.000-08:00

had juz seen another person blog..meake me so sad...

she is so sad..n the person who had cause all tht is one of my best friend..she had been hurt so muhc..if onli i could do something to help her..maybe after all this...its all my fault.. i shld had ask him to reject her rite from the start.. n she wouldnt be experincing all the pain she is receiving now..they shldnt had been together...they shld have broken...all this is all becuz of me.... my fault..the gal is so sad... but the guy seem perfectly fine to me.. y??? they always sae gals rthe onli 1 getting hurt..weell..this isnt true..this onli applied to those handsomes guys..i am juz a normal person n get hurt easiler..i knew the fact tht she will nv like me..for i am not gd enought... i noe... yet another friend of mine is also suffering.. she is a ncie gal n always smiles n laugh in class.. but i noe deep down she is suffering..far worse than me.. n she broke down in to tears on fridae.. when i heard this news..i was like..i knew tht she will break down one dae..into tears...for she need to release the stress...pain..watever she is experincing...i can onli sae she can onli let go..thought i dunno the details well...... maybe one dae..i need to let go to0..but can i do tht??? am i capable of doing tht??? getting hurt again??? i still remember last year after mid-year exam..i ask the gal before xXx if she will accept me..she told me.."be friends not gd mehz?"
actualli i kind of knew she would sae tht..for i am not gd enough..its not her fault..its my fault.. i am not gd neough for her..no..i am not gd enough for any1.. when she sms me tht..my hear had broken into many pieces..n i tried to act brave n pretend anything nv happen..but i cried when i came home..no1 had ever knew tht.. i juz hope it willl be silent tears..i dun wan to get hurt over n over again....i do not wna..but i knew i will....

LoV her

2005-03-03T19:29:00.000-08:00

todae got profiling..lol..got sathified with the rsult..lol..

let her be called xXx

haiz..nowadays she is smsing me less..n her way of smsing has change towards me..
lol..jessie once told hl tht i will like xXx..n she is true..hmm...jessie still understand me de best..lol..love her... i felt more relieved when her best friend told me tht she also sms her less lioa...then i felt so much assured..but still.. i noe she wun like me de..

i realli tink tht xXx noe tht i like her..but if u ever read this..pls..do not ignnore me even u dun like me.. lol.. juz tell me straight tht u dun like me..er..hahaz...dunno how to sae..

MyAbE..

2005-03-01T04:03:00.000-08:00

ToDaE SEnD somE WrOnG sMsEs aGaIN..sO bLuR..

todae brought the books for the even week de tuesdae..BLUR...

i realli tink she noe i like her lioa...haiz..lol... luckily she did not ignore me..
if she ignore me hor..me will be veri sad de..hahaz .lol..maybe...

love her....

DOeS shE lIkE mE???

2005-02-28T04:13:00.000-08:00

DuNO Y ToDaE sHe SeEm To tREaT mE NOt LikE In thE PaSt..

but towards the end of the dae..things have turn back too normal..like her a lot..
lol...sian..yc ex acctualli stay near her..didnt noe tht.. she vene sae tht she is cute..me agree lol..hahazZ..lol...

SoOn..

2005-02-27T04:06:00.000-08:00

ReaLL liKe HeR A lOT...'

sometimes i realli feel like telling her tht i like her....but i fear rejection..lol...
soon..i will juz like her n not let her noe..hahaz..lol

going to play 1 on 1 with gay soon..going to trash him to pulp..

DdAY

2005-02-26T20:00:00.000-08:00

ToDAe iS a noRmAl dAE..So BoRing..

sHe Is CuRreNtLy NOt onlInE..mISs hER..I wOnDeR..
will there be a dday where my voice can be nice..where muslin n chirstain can lived together happily..where fairy tale r not fairytale anymore..where the fantsay realm will be true..when i can be with u..hope things realli can be like this..

actualli a lot of ppl who r realli worse of than me..more ppl r much more sort of sad or more hurt than me..i got some1 i noe..dun wish to mention the name..she is nice n pretty...but she keep likeing the wrong person who always hurt her...hope tht she can recover n not to be sad.. n once the person who hurt her veri much is my best friend...i do not wish for such thing to happen again..i hope every1 can be with the ppl they like..n let not get hurt again...being hurted n hurting ppl is all painful experiences..there is almost some impact..some causes..n some aftereffect...... let juz hope tht 1 dae human will be cold-blooded therefore no1 will get hurted again....

TonG HUa

2005-02-24T23:42:00.000-08:00

tHerE Is ReAllI A NiCe SonG cALlEd toNg hUA..n It iS tHe SoNG BeINg PLAyEd..

GuEss tHT I rEAlI lIKe HeR a loT..a lot a lot

HaPpI BIrThDae

2005-02-24T04:44:00.000-08:00

my birthdae is yesterdae n realli happi...
there r still ppl who rmb my birthdae.. lol..anyway thkz..
thkz to teng2,hui yi,pamela,natalie, ciar er,amander,vera,jessie,hui lin,pei hong, wen zhu, shi hui, jee hui, cherie,yi hong n a lot more..all the guys not enough friend..did not give me present.. T.T haha/...jk..

i found something with the word magic on it..gave it to ws..it suits him better..hope tht thing can help him in his luck.. yesterdae played soccer with 3/8.. WE WON.. at the score of 3:1..... yeh!!!
teck yew, me n yc score...lol... but the sad thing is.. my bball skill deprove lioa...

realli like her a lot..haha..no1 noes who i like liao...but i sae no1 will expect this...but maybe she herself may noe tht i like her.. lol..cause i send her wrong sms..tht sms is suppose to be saved inside my hp diary but i accidently send to her..lol...

HaPpI ChINeSe nEw yEAr

2005-02-12T21:32:00.000-08:00

hAPPi cHinEse YeAr

This year chinese year veri the sian..went here went there then veri tired...still got a lot of hw haven finish...ahz.,..die lioa...dunno wat to sae...

ahz....

2005-02-05T23:47:00.000-08:00

SIan.. my photo in YeAr BoOk IS SoOo ugly...haiz..then sian..

yesterdae is yc de birthdae..HApPy biRtHdaE..
the DaE BeFoRe yc briThDae is tEnG tEnG bIrThDaE...hApPi biRtHdaE..

SiAn..SeEm I reALlI lIkE tHt GaL lIAo..

2005-01-31T05:12:00.000-08:00

If OnlI reAl LiFe CaN BE in tHoSe gAmEs N CoMIcS..liKe FF8 oR ff10..I mEAn TheY r sO TouCHiNg UnTIl yR hEArT wIlL MelT..'i will be here waiting for u..i promise' n " if we can seperated, whistle n i will come runiing for u" wHeRE R All tHe ChArAcTerS hAd suCh A PeRFeCt MaTcH fOr OnE aNoTheR..

Too bad real life isn't like tht..

i realli hope it will be tht...

but i noe it nv will...

be the way i wan..

Me iS sO..

2005-01-29T04:45:00.000-08:00

Yet aNoTHeR tImE flAnK hER..as i always i will ask her to go gome with me..n everytime she agree.. n i am always the 1 who chose something over her..did not i not love her enough or wat... i like her...yet i choose her over bball..is bball reall tht important..i dunno..but i noe she 's my life...

CraP...

2005-01-27T05:12:00.000-08:00

ToO REaLi sIaN..we play bball during training n keep losing to sec 4 n 5... y?? it wasnt like this in the past.....crap...n somemore i did not accompany her to go home cause i wan to play bball...how can i be more dumb...lame sia...sometimes i am tinking...is she tht innocent, simple as i thought...yc said tht she isn't tht simple n innocent as i tink...is she tht nice to every guy or it is juz me..maybe after all i am tinking too much..she might onli treat me nth more than a friend..

ShE LIKe mE???

2005-01-26T01:14:00.000-08:00

i keep tinking..does she like me...will she like me..is she tht innocent as i see her..is she tht simple as wat i have tink..is she like this to every guy..maybe yes...but those few moments with her is enough for her to take my heart away..my view of her change 180 degree...used to tink tht she is bossy or wat..but i tink she is juz..dunno how to sae..

lovin her

2005-01-22T23:02:00.000-08:00

realli like her a lot..maybe there is a bit of chance tht i n her can be together..well..i said maybe..maybe not after all...it all depend on fate..

FiNaLLi...

2005-01-20T23:40:00.000-08:00

Finally..i got her email add n her hp num....seem tht i really like her a lot lioa...keep tinking abt her... dunno y also...maybe cause she realli pretty..hahaz....